I remember a fateful day I walked into a Business Centre @ Ilupeju to photocopy my CV and seated there was one overzealous man whom after staring at me for a while walked up to me rubbing my face and asking with very annoying laugh, what is this little girl? I was so surprised, embarrassed, insulted and amazed that I asked him, do you have to touch me to ask that. To my surprise he busted out asking me who I am that he can’t touch me anyhow he wanted, now all attention was on me and already some people were laughing, he went on asking why he can’t touch whether he was the one that asked me to try bleaching my skin and now left with white patches and that brought about serious laugh from everybody in there. At this time I had lost it, I was so humiliated and embarrassed, couldn’t hold it and was already crying and was ready for the worst, he went on having fun humiliating me, but at the time I had told him that if he dare touches me again that I will blow him. He advanced towards me again to touch me, but for the intervention of a woman in there who’s been watching all the while, I left there very sad and in tears.
Another time I felt so humiliated was the day a girl who got into the commercial bus I was already seated looked up and seeing my face (peak of my Vitiligo) screamed and the driver of the bus stooped and she jumped down from the bus. Every other person now started looking at me as if I had some contagious deadly disease; I tried ignoring their stares but was dying deep inside.
It was just a very difficult moment for me and having no-one to share with at the time, someone who understands what I was going through at the time. So much to say really about what one went through living with Vitiligo, was it the nasty unfriendly comments, was it friends trying to avoid you, was it stares and conclusions from the ignorant general public? In search of people to share experience with and to support each other Vitiligo Support and Awareness Foundation (VITSAF) was born and getting started with this was really a great turn around for me.
I became scared of life, my future and my dreams! I was scared of dying with my dreams; I hated being felt pity for. A message by my Pastor titled ‘MIND’ got me started. I got to understand that the responsibility of the mind in me is mine that making up my mind is entirely mine, that whatever I choose to do is my responsibility. I realized it’s a thing of the MIND. If you can work on your mind, you can have control over what gets you down or affects you. The purpose of the mind is to think, which it cannot do when overwrought. Peace of mind is of practical importance, for it releases that quality of mind-power that produces constructive results.
I had to tell my self the truth, I needed peace, needed to think again constructively, Vitiligo is here and I just have to live with it positively while managing and fighting. What people thought or say was not a problem anymore because what anybody says is their own opinion and never 100% accepted by all.
I found out that the power to fulfill my destiny is within me!
I am conquering with Positive Attitude!!!
I Conquered with Positive Attitude!!!